What’s worth fighting for? (inspired by Katy McAllister’s “Worth Fighting For”)

Think back to that first relationship that you’ve had that you’ll always remember. That relationship that fulfilled all of your thoughts on what love actually was. That relationship that you defined as your first love. If you’re anything like me..that relationship changed your life. I remember mine perfectly. I had the perfect boyfriend. He was always there for me through everything, he was faithful, he was everything to me. We were together for 8 months. Some of the days were better than others..but that’s in every relationship..no one has the perfect relationship. If my relationship was perect..we’d still be together. Like everyone else, we had our differences. While dating him..I completely changed myself. I was so worried about losing him..that I was starting to push him away, and I didn’t even realize i was doing it until he was gone. It was one of those mistakes that if I was able to go back and change them completely..I would. Without a question about it. I loved him more that anyone could ever imagine..I still do..and I’m pretty sure I always will. He showed me what love really is. Lately, I’ve tried to move on and date other people..but they didn’t compare to him. This post may be sounding very mushy..but this is the first time I’ve expressed my feelings about him since we broke up. We’re close friends now..but at some points I can’t help thinking back to how the way things used to be. I miss being able to call him “mine”. I hurt him..and I can’t take that back. But ever since we broke up..I’ve learned so much. I’m such a different person than back then. Every night..I pray for a third chance. I’m not trying to sound desperate, trust me. I guess you can say I know how things would be if we’d try again…nothing like before. Everyone always needs time for themselves to grow. Maybe us being apart was our time. No one will ever know what will happen in the future. All I hope for…is me and him having a future together. He’ll always be in my heart.

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